What a relief! On May 20, one day short of 7 weeks, we saw our little bean via ultrasound, and got to see/hear the heartbeat! Everything is measuring just as it should right now, so it’s finally starting to feel just a little bit more real. I think D is feeling a little better about things now too. While I have always taken the “cautiously optimistic” approach to early pregnancy, I think D is more just plain cautious. I think we often think of pregnancy loss as a woman’s issue, but in many ways I feel like D is more burned from our loss than I am. Case in point: he wasn’t even sure whether he wanted to try for a second child, whereas I definitely was ready, even if I was terrified. But now that we’ve had a successful ultrasound, our miscarriage risk is about half what it was, and D even told one close friend, plus his dad and stepmom. It’s nice to see him starting to get excited, even if we don’t talk about it much. I’m giving him his space and letting him handle it in whatever way makes him feel most comfortable. We’re still keeping the circle of those in the know small for now. We aren’t out of the woods yet and go back for our first regular prenatal appointment on June 4 at 9 weeks. I think I’ll be able to relax a little more after that. It definitely feels like time is moving faster this time around — maybe because I’m not so obsessive as I was the last two times. I’m still excited, but there’s definitely something to be said about second child syndrome.
Baby is about the size of a blueberry and is generating about 100 new brain cells per minute. S/he is also developing kidneys and arm/leg joints this week.
Mama: Most of the same. Some nausea, but not as much throwing up as last time. Teeth brushing is still really hard and makes me gaggy. I had to buy some mouthwash because some days I just can’t finish brushing my teeth. Boobs are feeling really heavy, but not nearly as sore as the last two pregnancies. I alternate between being ravenously hungry and nothing sounding good — sometimes at the same time, even. I notice I get hungry in the evenings just before bed, though for the most part I’ve resisted the temptation to snack.
Cravings: I just had to get a blizzard from Dairy Queen this weekend! I was feeling sick to my stomach, but for some reason that was the only thing that sounded good. Go figure.
Weight: Lost 0.8 lbs this week, bringing me to 1.4 lbs below my starting weight.